I would lose it all for love

Doubt,
You're just a lie I let myself believe
a means without ends, nothing to achieve
the very threat all mouth no clout
lacking confidence action undermined
taking the time to know that is not how
I choose to be defined.

I want to be kissed
I want all that I have missed
letting my fears drive me away
I didn't talk, I thought I had
nothing to say.
I want to be embraced
to understand that I am not
just something someone
replaced.

Silence,
You're what I thought I should fear,
living alone, no one to even care.
someplace without anyone to hold,
now I know that there is a life out
there with warmth away from the cold.

I want to be kissed
I want all that I have missed.
I want that song to take me far away,
I want to stand by you at the close
of the day,
I long for your embrace,
a moment alone- face to face.

The song says,
I don't care if my heart breaks
I don't care what they all say,
my response is- well if that is
all that it takes, let me find my
own way, I am going to pay
what I want to pay,
and if my heart breaks
then I can say that I did
it all, lost it all- for love.


credits:

Motherhood

Seemingly undefinable definition of how much a human can love another,

the feeling that you should know something more than you did before you

were born into this world, as if the Creator told you to remember that there

would be one person who should always love you; whether you succeeded or

failed, if you rose to the occasion or ran away from a crisis back into the arms

of the one person who can still wipe away your tears. The one person who you

will remember before you die, the same person who held you when you 

came screaming into existence, the warm darkness deprived, cold crisp

light until finding that safe place under your mother's wings.

Epitaphs.

There are empty chairs in my memories, my friends are gone
no one is left to forgive me, since I have long since moved on.
There is no space in my narrow bed, no one to love me,
no one to remember how it made them feel when would kiss,
only the vacancy waiting, only the ghost-like absence
of what it was supposed to be.

There are empty tables I no longer can recollect or recall,
someone should have shared a cup of comfort, but that is all,
There is no place for pity, no words that can make it alright,
no one will look to where I stood waiting, my shadow
against the light, the abysmal disappoint, only the void
stark against the wall.

There is no room left for regrets, no epitaph to engrave on stone,
the graveyards stand in silence, the grass and weeds overgrown.
There is no face to behold in the mind's inner eye,
no pronouncement of mercy, just the loss of pace
to mark that we are passing through this life,
no answers are given, no reasons why.

I wish upon a star, I pray in cliches from afar
there goes the long black car, should funerals
take place in the rain, the sun must abstain,
the words are read, the blessings are said,
no one returns anymore, to whispers
these secrets to the dead.